Fingerstick

I can take seeing my own blood but I cannot puncture people myself.  I finger pricked someone and nearly passed out.  I think I was wheezy anyway.  I was at training by the way.

Sick day

Yes, it’s my fault I got an abscess.  But at least I am not trying to get sympathy votes, I am just trying to get it fixed. 

I am going to get me something tasty to eat and go home.

Take the antibiotics and chill.  It’s going to be a long week.  I’ll have to email J my presentation to go over, since I left my USB port at home.  I have training tomorrow which should be fun.  I’m am looking forward to being out of the office.  I hope no one goes through my things while I am gone.  I still need a file cabinet because my folders are getting out of hand.  That or we need to move the old folders out.

P came and picked up the baby invitations I made for the shower.  She was happy with them.  I thought I was going to have to pry my brother off her stomach.  He just kept saying wow.

Tooth abscess

It’s basically an infection of you tooth and gums.  My gums are really swollen.  I don’t know what I should have expected.  I have major dental issues and I shouldn’t have let the tooth erode to barely nothing.   This is the third time this had happened to me.  I am going to get all the necessary teeth pulled by the end of the year.  Am I afraid?  No,  I am just worried about the insurance covering a lot of the oral suregry and payment.  Everything will work out though.

New Book Club

I went to my friest book club meting in a long time and it wasn’t what I though it was going to be.  Things change and it felt more cliquey.  I felt out of place and I didn’t even dress like the eigrls, it was lkethey had their own wardrobe.  I do think I need to hang out with more straight women but I don’t think that this book club is for me any more.

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Weekend

Weekend Schdule

Saturday

• working 11-1pm by myself @ a church
• Lunch with the girls from  QUEENS book club
• Movie with my Aunt

Sunday

• Work on presentation with friend
• Dinner with the family

A daze

work has been very busy for me

I have a packed weekend, which I am excited about.

My day

Meetings

someone got fired

I had Zaxbys for lunch (supercool)

today was payday

Did I mention the meetings

Figuring It Out

I have a lot going on and I have to put a holt to it.  I need to realize what I want to do and need to do?

Stuff over Stuff

today I will… myself
tomorrow I will… be more productive
I love it when… I accomplish things
I hate it when… I become manic
I have… 44oz Pilot cup
I haven’t… slept good in weeks
I can… hope everything will be better
I can’t… be in the same place next year as I am this year
I’m happy when… I’m being creative.
I’m sad when… I feel I have no control over things
I love eating… hashbrowns
I hate eating… peanut butter
I’m glad that… I have a job
I’m disappointed that… that I have not put in my all to get into school

A Family Affair

I went to a family reunion, which wasn’t as dramatic as I imagined it to be. On the way back to my grandparents house for dinner we stopped to get ice cream, then I bumped into my other grandparents. My biological fathers parents. It was weird, I haven’t seen them in years. it was also a lot of hugging. I also found out the sperm donor had been staying in Atlanta for a little bit and hadn’t called me. It hurt but it’s not like he owes me anything. I’ve decided to maintain keeping a distance from them, because I need people who are going to stay in my life and not be nomadic. I love him. I still don’t know how to forgive him. And at the current moment would not attend his funeral, because I would want to spit on him. It’s sad but true. There is just so much hurt and anger there. 

It’s part of the reason I cannot find someone, because people come and go.  And right now I am not ready to put my heart out there.  And the people I do have I try to hold on desperately to.  I yo yo.  I want them close then I want them away.  I am not going to give him that much power because I know it’s something I have to get over.